I'm struggling with this more than with any other of these vile attacks.

I feel a bit guilty about prioritising them like that but I've not been able to stop thinking about it. I just can't comprehend, nor do I want to, the mind-set of these people.

More importantly I can't comprehend the abject horror, torment and utter despair being experienced by the parents and relatives of the fallen. They targeted children. How can a human being do that?

It's purely unthinkable what these families are going through.

I'm not being particularly articulate about this I know as I'm really struggling to get past the emotion.

I also feel guilty about feeling bad about it. I'm not affected. What I'm feeling is incomparable to what the relatives are going through. I don't know how you even come back from that.

I'll shut up now. I wrote it down as it's good to share.